Monday, October 1, 2012

PRECIPICE

Precipice is my first Not-Quite-Ready-For-Prime-Time novel. Since this is my Blog, I thought I'd inflict it on my readers as a serial. See if you can stand it,





PRECIPICE

PROLOGUE


SOUTH GATE, YOSEMITE NATIONAL PARK
EARLY TUESDAY MORNING

    Park ranger Tom Grissom gazed at the stars above and wondered if he were about to die...
    Moments before he’d been working a particularly dull night shift. In a flash the night had morphed into a screaming nightmare. The stars above blazed and faded in time to the beating of his heart. Again he wondered if death were about to claim him. Grissom thought back over the previous moments. Had he done anything wrong? Had he himself issued an invitation to the old man with the scythe? Maybe he should have chosen another line of work altogether.
     As an interpretive ranger, Grissom usually enjoyed manning the Park’s entrance booths. But working three late shifts in the same week seemed like some kind of insult. Normally he performed the traditional ranger tasks, welcoming and guiding tourists around the Park. He preferred that to being a law-enforcement ranger, spending his time writing tickets and arresting drunks. But this was a waste of his valuable time.
    Big important job, he thought, pacing the two or three little steps the booth allowed. Not a single car in two hours, he grumped, glaring at his unwanted domain. The southern gateway to Yosemite consisted of two small, rustic cubicles, set in the middle of the road like tollbooths, creating three lanes for traffic. At this time of night even using one always seemed an extravagant waste of manpower to him.
    He ceased his aimless pacing and parked his butt on the shack’s government-issue metal stool. The tall stool had only three of its rubber footpads, causing it to rock unevenly. Irritated, Grissom shifted his body, seeking the proper balance point. Once stabilized, he set about reading yesterday’s copy of the local paper, the Merced Register. “Not again! He shook the paper and rolled his eyes.
     Across the front page a banner headline proclaimed, “Tourists Go Home!” The accompanying article proclaimed the Sacred Earth Society’s environmental demands for the umteenth time. Ever-expanding tourism, they claimed, was encroaching on the park’s delicate eco-system. The activist’s solution was to shut down Yosemite to all tourism. Though Grissom had some sympathy for their views, he found their means unethical, not to say illegal. The article conveyed their usual mix of arrogant bombast mixed with equal portions of tearful hand-wringing, but it did help him forget his own woes and lose track of time for five whole minutes.
    The throbbing, dissonant growls of heavy vehicles approaching from the south gradually invaded his concentration, alerting him to the welcome possibility of acting remotely ranger-like soon. Grissom glanced up over the top of the paper, eyes squinting against the sudden glare of headlights centered directly on his booth. The harsh brilliance of the light dazzled him, but not enough to keep him from appreciating that the lead vehicle deviated neither right or left of where he sat.         Great, that’s exactly what I need tonight, he thought; imagining the reams of paperwork attendant to filing an accident report. The year before a drunk driver had plowed his recreational vehicle into the booth at Big Oak Flat, injuring a ranger and several guests. But Grissom’s irritation immediately changed to apprehension as his ears caught the sound of a rugged transmission downshifting, followed by the increased pitch and volume of the engine’s growl as the truck accelerated.
    Realizing his peril, Grissom leaped from his stool, flinging himself through the narrow doorway, rapping his left knee in the process. He rolled over on the gritty pavement, staring in amazement as a three-quarter ton stake-side truck slammed into the booth at what must have been forty miles an hour. Like a ski jumper hitting the ramp, the truck’s front end reared up on the tough stone and concrete base of the little shack, headlights illuminating the tops of trees a hundred yards away. The force of the impact shattered the shack’s windows, raining glass over the parking lot, showering the ranger with slivers and shards of tiny, sparkling razors.
    The force hurled the booth’s wood and metal roof into the air; its thousand pound deadweight crashing down on Grissom’s outstretched legs. In the midst of this surrealistic nightmare, he heard the shriek of tortured aluminum, the boom-boompf of heavy balks of timber and the loud crack of at least one of his femurs fracturing. In his confusion and pain he couldn’t be sure if one or both legs had been broken. The combination of shock and the sudden adrenaline rush had temporarily numbed him to all sensory input. Grissom lay on the rough, oil-stained pavement in a daze. Loose gravel and dagger-like glass ground into his back. He felt no physical pain but his mind churned in a crazy kaleidoscope of frustration and bewilderment.
What is going on?!
    As he lay there trapped and helpless, bodies began to jump from the tilted rear of the truck. Booted footsteps thumped across the pavement toward Grissom, more felt than heard. He watched as a large recreational vehicle drove right up to where he lay. Its right front tire nudged the shattered remains of the roof, wrenching a scream of agony from him. The comforting blanket of numbness had suddenly been stripped from Ranger Grissom’s tortured body. Through the sudden blaze of pain he heard a heavy door open with a protesting metallic squeal. A large man stepped out and slammed the door shut.
    Half-blinded by the halogen glare of twin headlights, Grissom saw nothing distinct, only shadowy movement all around him. A booted figure emerged from the gloom, treading heavily through the dazzling white light. The dark, man-shape strode up to where he lay and calmly looked down at the ranger, pinned under the collapsed wreckage.
    In spite of the pain and disorientation Grissom was captivated by the stars overhead. They blazed in the black sky, diamond bright. A shadow appeared, occulting the heavens. He lolled his head around to see what caused the shadow. The large man stood over him, dressed in camouflage hunting coveralls, carrying what appeared to be a twelve-gauge pump shotgun. The lunatic play of light and shadow, abetted by a dark bushy beard, obscured the man’s features. Yet Grissom had no trouble seeing the white gleam of eyes and teeth as the stranger stood smiling down at him.   
     Grissom shuddered as the shadowy, backlit figure, raised the shotgun to its shoulder, racked a shell into the chamber, and addressed himself to the prone ranger.
    “My name is General Horace B. Taylor of the Mariposa Militia,” he announced in a voice that sounded like gravel canting from a hopper. “And you are trespassin’ on my property, government boy.”
     Taylor sighted down the length of the barrel at Grissom and calmly pulled the trigger.

SCRIPTURE ART

Saw a three dimensional poster like this once in a church in Riverside, California, I was fascinated by this concept and would like to do some art like it for my building.


Sunday, September 30, 2012

Thursday, September 27, 2012

THE MAN IN THE ARENA

Fightin' words from President Teddy Roosevelt:



It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.

Monday, September 17, 2012

WHAT CONDITION MY CONDITION WAS IN

Yikes. I'd heard that the effects of chemo were cumulative. Sure are. This third experience was the toughest one yet. The first week I felt better by the end of the last day of meds. The second week I felt better the day after the end of meds. Two days following the end this time and I'm still achy and beat.

I preached from a stool yesterday, and didn't feel like expending energy singing, either. By the end of service I felt a bit better and we went to a light lunch. I spent the afternoon in bed because I just couldn't face laps in the pool. Today I got up expecting to resume my "normal" abbreviated schedule. But after going out to breakfast I decided to skip errands and go back to bed. I did finally get back in the pool this afternoon for a short thirty-minutes.

Beyond the aches and exhaustion, the worst part is my dead taste buds. Apparently, since chemo attacks fast-growing cells taste buds are a prime target. Everything tastes like... John Nance Gardner's description of the value of the office of the Vice President: "a pitcher of warm spit." Oh, well; three down, three to go. Nothing for it, but to make the best of it and see it through.  ...Actually, I was beginning to feel a bit guilty at how easy it had been to this point.

Well. as Super Chicken says to his sidekick Fred; "You knew the job was dangerous when you took it." 


Tuesday, September 11, 2012

THIRD CHEMO-THERAPY SESSION

SIT-REP 09-11-12 Momentous day to have my third Chemo-Therapy session. This marks the halfway point. Sitting here thinking of 9/11 and the people who never got the chance to live the last 11 years that I've had. Thankful, but somber with that thought. Remember with pride that our country was united for a few short months before the usual  political drivel drove its silly wedge in.

The needle has been plugged into my bionic implant. Start-up fluid is pumping but I'm waiting for the doctor to authorize the chemo regimen to begin.

I'm also nervously waiting to hear the results of last week's PET/CAT scan. The scan is supposed to reveal if there are any other cancerous growths. There is no medical test that can find individual cancer cells in the body. The PET can find groupings of such cells. I awoke this morning to a 246 blood sugar reading. Normal is 75 to 130. My morning average is 100. I immediately took a maximum dose of insulin (100 units), waited an hour and got a reading of 295. YIKES! I took another maximum dose. I've never had to do that before. These numbers are not a result of the cancer but of stress. I've been pretty confident in my mind but my body seems to have a mind of its own.

PET SCAN UPDATE No Longer Applicable
Doctor just came by and asked me to see him in his office after chemo. This is ominous. I figured that good news could be said in front of everyone, but bad news would be given in private. I tend to be pessimistic, so maybe I'm reading too much into this. I'd appreciate your prayers... I even believe in retroactive prayer.

ADDITIONAL PET SCAN UPDATE...
Wow. God is so good. The PET SCAN came back negative. No sign of cancerous growths in my body. The reason the doctor asked to see me in private is to ask me to pray for him. Oncology is one of the toughest disciplines in medicine. Dr. M told me his department is undermanned because of the economy and he loses @ two patients a month. He is a compassionate man and needs our prayers. Please remember him. I won't give his full name but God knows who he is. He told me a story of two patients with stage four Liver Cancer. One patient was a believer, the other had no hope and expected to die. The patient without hope saw his immune system fail and soon died. The patient with trust in God is cancer free and doing well. Faith in Someone greater than yourself makes all the difference.

Some Saturday this month is the Walk for Cancer in Quartz Hill. They are supposed to walk in my name. In October 2nd is my fourth Chemo-treatment. And Desert Christian High's Home Coming football game in October will be in my honor as well.

I prayed for opportunities to help others with cancer and they are coming my way. No matter the outcome, this is a good thing.

Monday, September 10, 2012

REMEMBER 9/11

This is a time to remember the thousands who perished and those who gave their lives to save some, if not all.



As time passes it is easy to forget. But an attack on our country based mainly on who we are is not something to put behind us. There are still those who wish and plan for our demise. Never Forget.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

CHRIST AND MOSES

 
The Son of the Master is greater than any servant, no matter how great. Hebrews exhorts us to have the courage to not just BELIEVE, but to LIVE for Jesus the Apostle and High Priest of our faith.

 

Sunday, September 2, 2012

THE MYTH OF SINLESS PERFECTION

During my freshman year of college we called it "Getting Tinked." The term came from a remark from one of the students, who said the Sinless Perfection movement sweeping the campus was like God plowing through the students, knocking them over; tink, tink, tink.

That was a heady year for me. The Jesus People introduced me to the Charismatic Movement, I met Joe--my best friend for life--and the "Tinkers" assured me I must be absolutely sin-free before God could ever use me. Well, at least one of those things--namely Joe--lasted.

Sinless Perfection is the notion that you can stand before God righteous and holy because of the pure and dedicated life you live. Now--obviously-- we're not talking about "sinners" here. C'mon! You have to be "saved" by Jesus, "washed in the blood of the lamb!" Then, because you have the power of the indwelling Holy Spirit it is possible to Just Say No to Sin. Therefore, since you CAN be sin-free, it follows you MUST be perpetually sin-free in order to be acceptable to God.

Okay, Theologically, it IS technically possible to fall on the grace of God in every temptation and escape. ... But DO you? I certainly don't, not consistently. Even the great Apostle Paul despaired that he kept doing the things he didn't want to do. That's because though you might be saved by the grace of God and the blood of Jesus you are still a fallen, corrupted, being. Christians battle the old sin nature every day of our saved lives on this earth. You are righteous in God's sight because of the overflow of Christ's imputed righteousness, not your own.

Given that the Bible is replete with references to man's fallen, sinful nature, I find it absurd that the notion of sinless perfection is a perennial among religious people--Christians in particular. Yet it continues to make the rounds, putting on a pious new face every so often and enticing believers who ought to know better. When we find it in someone else we call it legalism, or Phariseeism. In our self, we often praise it as holiness.

As something of a theologian, I find it necessary to correct this misunderstanding. Here goes: You are not righteous in and of yourself, nor am I. On our BEST day you and I have more in common with Adolph Hitler than with Jesus Christ. I state the contrast in such graphic terms that even the most spiritually myopic might understand my meaning.

Let me give you a couple of examples of how the Bible deals with the doctrine of Sinless Perfection. Paul lost his temper with John Mark. Peter acted hypocritically around the Judaizers. Did God stop using them? No.

Though Christian believers DO have the indwelling Holy Spirit we find we must fall on God continually for strength and grace. That is because we are not spiritually self-sufficient. in Paul's words, "Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phillippians 3:13-14.

The Christian life is a process. It is true to say I have been saved, I am being saved and one day I will ultimately be saved. As for here and now in this life, it is the beginning and the process we experience. The ultimate will not be true until we get to Heaven, or God intervenes with the "2nd Coming Shortcut."

I say all this because I keep hearing Christians talk about salvation by grace, while demanding sinless perfection from others. Brethren, lighten up.